conversations, meditations, reflections
Posts tagged miracles
Miracle Mode
Nov 7th
June 16, 2009
So much has happened….. yesterday evening I headed out for my walkabout, up the stairs, across the KVR trail, down the first set of bluffs, and then started walking the beachfront. I just reached the Lakeshore Inn and ran into ___. He talked and talked, telling me amazing things You have been doing and orchestrating in his life these days. He talked till it was quite dark and the wind rose up on the lake, so he walked me home.
I don’t believe this “run into” meeting was just a coincidence. I think he was just bursting with joy and excitement and needed to share what You are doing… but at the same time, I have been doing so much wondering about, and questioning and asking for boldness and courage, and also sometimes feeling a bit out of place… and the stories he told were so exciting and encouraging! From You! He talked about how You have taken away all his fear (not to mention miraculously protecting him, like the bear that went round and round his campsite, so that the cougar stayed away! Cool!). Well, I tend to get kind of fearful, because I’m not totally at home on the streets, You know. So that encouraged me. And he told me how You’ve taken care of some consequences from his past, since he totally gave his whole existence to You. And how You have provided for him in such miraculous ways (reminded me of the miracles You have done for us in the past: at Bible School, and the gas miracles when ___ was born, and the miraculous answers to prayer that You gave ___ when she was small, and ___’s healings as a baby… I shared a few examples with him, myself – I was literally dancing a little jig of joy!).
I needed that because it seems like a long time since I’ve experienced “miracle mode” … and in a way I’ve tried to “excuse it” by telling myself that maybe You do that “in the beginning” to “encourage new believers”… but I’m really thinking You are just waiting for me to really trust You – including to the point of stepping out even without any visible means of support or whatever… not being “reasonable,” I suppose! He also said how when he tells You he’s willing to lose everything for You, You have taken him up on it… and more…! People sometimes say, “Be careful what you ask God for, because He might really take you up on it!” … and he’s been experiencing that over and over! Then back downtown I ran into ___ again, and he told me he wants to start fasting… and I told him You have just spoken to me about fasting, and that I had just posted it on my blog this morning. So that was confirmation to both of us, as You are showing us both the same things! Wow! Thank You.
When I got home this morning after coffee time, I went into my old files and printed the two old “fasting” items I’d written a long time ago, plus the new blog… wow, it is amazing to see the newer, deeper things You show me as time goes by! Thank You! So I will give that stuff to him when I see him.
Wow, it is 1:55 and I have written 8+ pages in my journal in the past hour and a half (you can see them in my “church journey blog” – check out the links to the left). Well, I want to read from Your Word now, and see what else You want to say to me today (and oh, I really do want to “practice the presence of God” – to walk with You, abide in You, every moment of every day…)
And Father, I’d also like to reach out to my new young neighbors (and the not-quite-so-young-ones too) next door – it makes me sad to hear, on the one hand, the loud partying, and on the other, the arguments and fights both among the young men but also between the young couple (and the baby crying and crying)…. (Whatever it might mean for my own “lack of safety” and “discomfort” and all). (Am I a bit afraid of all this? Yes… but I also have Your perfect love… and if I really do walk in and abide in You and Your love, I do not need to fear… and You, the God of all the universe and far beyond, are with me… forever!). (Help me trust You – why shouldn’t I? You are God Almighty! Amazing, wonderful God of love and mercy and redemption and grace! King of kings, Lord of lords, ruler of the universe, Creator, eternal, the One who is Love – the One who IS! Thank You! Amen!) Yay!
Isaiah 61:1 The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me, because the LORD has anointed me to bring good news to the afflicted; He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to captives and freedom to prisoners. 2. To proclaim the favorable year of the LORD and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all who mourn, 3. … giving them a garland instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, the mantle of praise instead of a spirit of fainting. So they will be called oaks of righteousness, the planning of the LORD, that He may be glorified.
Col 1:6-7 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus… 19. And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus [as you have reached out and loved others and supplied their needs: see verses 10 to 18]!
What did I do for the rest of the day? Oh yes, slept for a couple hours! Made and ate supper. Hubby and I went to the store, then I went walkabout with my son when hubby went to work. Did this and that. Then went and sat on the park bench at the beach and caught up my daily Bible reading. Home and to sleep.
Notes from Nov 14: God is in control and providing amazingly!
Nov 20th
Thank You, Lord – I keep “hearing little voices” on my shoulder – so to speak – saying, “Oh! You better get more work! Your husband isn’t earning as much now..” BUT this morning hubby came home from work with a bunch of frozen deer meat another worker gave him as a gift. And there was exactly enough space in the freezer- which is amazingly full! And hubby’s full-time position starts Sunday (while my job ends tomorrow, Saturday!) – I just KNOW YOU ARE IN CONTROL AND I KNOW YOU ARE PROVIDING – AMAZINGLY!
Wow! Praise God! Thank You! Amen! Yay! Praise ye the Lord! Hallelujah!
Peter’s Miracles
Apr 14th

Four babies had been born to church families in one week! Now, a month later, at Sunday service, four sets of parents stood at the front of the church joyfully holding their little ones, and the pastor read aloud the story of Hannah dedicating her son Samuel to God, and the story of Mary and Joseph bringing little Jesus to the temple to dedicate him. Then, one by one, the pastor lovingly took each child in his arms and prayed for them, asking God to protect and nurture them, and to help each parent to raise their new baby to love and serve the Lord. Finally, he came to baby number four, our son, Peter.
Holding Peter in his arms, the pastor again prayed, but as he prayed something unexpected happened. Reaching the final words of the dedication prayer, he suddenly spoke these words: “This child, Peter, will grow up to become a mighty preacher like his namesake, Peter, in the Bible.” As the words ended, the pastor stopped, and his mouth hung open. He looked surprised, almost shocked. Clearly, the words were not planned, nor expected. There was silence in the church. Finally, the pastor passed the baby back to us and said, “Amen.” The silence was broken, and the service continued. Yet we, Peter’s parents, knew that this could only be a word from God. After five daughters – four of our own, plus our niece who had come to live with us — God had given us a son – and a precious promise!
Two weeks later, again on a Sunday, we were preparing for church, when I noticed that Peter’s little hand was swollen. I called my husband, who noticed that there was a small red mark, which looked like a spider bite. He suggested that I should stay home with Peter, while he took our five daughters to church. But when they arrived home an hour and a half later, Peter’s little hand was round like a ball. I could never have imagined that a hand could swell like that. It looked ready to burst. And a thin red line was inching its way up his arm. I had seen that before – when my brother had blood poisoning!
My husband quickly called a babysitter, and we rushed Peter to the hospital. The emergency room was busy and we were given a “number.” As we sat there, the minutes crawled by, and the red line went higher up Peter’s arm. He grew red and his body grew hot. I went to the nurses’ desk, and after taking one look at him, they sent us right into the emergency ward. There was only one doctor there, and she was sitting drinking coffee. The nurse said, “This is a real emergency.” The doctor replied, “I’m waiting for a phone call from a specialist, and they’ll just have to wait.” She continued to sit and drink coffee, for another half hour. I begged her to look at the baby, but she refused.
By this time the line was up into his armpit and heading down toward his heart. He was burning up, his skin pale, and his little body limp. Finally, another doctor wandered through the emergency ward. I rushed up to him, and begged him, “Please look at my baby.” He replied, “But I’m not on duty. You have to wait for the duty doctor.” I cried out, “I’ve been here so long and she refuses to check the baby. I think he has blood poisoning!” Quickly, he looked at Peter. Then he dashed over and pressed a button on the wall, and a loud beeper went off. Doctors and nurses came rushing into the emergency ward through all the doors. Trolleys loaded with equipment were rolled out. Peter was taken from my arms, placed on a cot, and surrounded by medical staff. (The lady doctor continued to sit and drink coffee!)
Finally, the doctor who had set off the alarm came over, and asked us to sit down. “How old is your baby? Do you have other children?” As we answered, he said gravely, “Your son is very ill. We do not have an intensive-care nursery here, so we can’t give him medication intravenously. We can try to give him oral antibiotics, but he is so sick that it is doubtful that he will be able to swallow them. We will try to slip them into his mouth as you nurse him. We will have to give him very large amounts, in hopes that he might swallow some. We cannot move him, even by helicopter, to another hospital, because any more movement will drive the blood poisoning right into his heart and he will die. I am very sorry, but there is a very strong chance that your son will not make it.”
Devastating words! We finally had a son, and God had given such a wonderful promise! Because of complications with the pregnancy, I could not have another child. It seemed that the enemy was doing all he could to destroy God’s purposes and plans. But of course, God is stronger. One of the men of the church had gone home for lunch, and God clearly spoke to him, “Pray for that Hill baby!” He didn’t even remember Peter’s first name, but obediently he prayed, all afternoon. Then he went to the evening service, and had the whole church pray. Meantime, at the hospital, the medical staff were doing all they could, but it still looked hopeless. They asked me to stay at the hospital, to try and get Peter to nurse, so they could get some meds into him. Finally, late at night, I fell asleep exhausted.
Monday morning came, and I woke, wondering if my precious baby was even still alive. But he was! Not only was he alive, but the swelling in his hand was gone, and the red line had almost totally disappeared! He started nursing well, and the doctors finally got some medicine into him. And on Tuesday morning, we took him home, totally fine! The doctors told us, “This is nothing but a miracle!”
But the story does not end there. For again, about two weeks later, Peter was sick. He had developed severe conjunctivitis, and antibiotics weren’t doing anything. His eyes were completely, thickly covered with pus, and there was so much of it, that even his cheeks were constantly covered, as it just seemed to pour from his eyes. His eyes, themselves, could not even be seen. Again it was Sunday. We took him to church, and when the pastor asked if anyone had prayer requests, we asked to have him anoint Peter and pray for him. We took him to the front. The pastor anointed him with oil, and then prayed a simple prayer. I was watching, and the very moment the pastor said, “Amen,” the pus literally fell off Peter’s eyes and off the area below his eyes. His lower cheeks were thickly coated, but his eyes and all the area around them were perfectly clear. He was happily looking around and smiling! I grabbed a Kleenex and wiped his cheeks off. And he never, ever had even a speck of pus in his eyes again! Our mighty God had again overcome the attacks of the enemy! Praise His name! And to this very day, over and over, I have seen our wonderful Lord taking care of our son who is now 17, and I totally believe that one day the promise of God given at Peter’s dedication will be fulfilled! Praise God! Thank You, Lord! Amen!
mom and the angels
Mar 29th
Yesterday, I went to visit mom, and she was in bed because after they got her up and bathed her, she was too weak to sit up in her chair so they had to put her back in bed. And she was laying there, kind of curled up almost fetal position, so thin and so tired-looking, and so… well, lost-looking, I think, like a little lost tired bewildered child… and I sat down beside her, and for the first while I didn’t know what to do or say, just breathed a couple of little prayers, saying, “Father… what…??? Can’t You just take care of her?…” because I didn’t know what else to ask. And after a while I was gently rubbing her head, running my hands through her hair, and she took hold of my hands and held them between hers, and then she looked at me so hard, and she reached up and took hold of my face, one hand on each cheek, and drew me down to her and held my face up against her face, cheek to cheek… and then let me go. And I saw Grandpa’s old Bible, the one that was at Kelly Care, and I picked it up and started to read to her from it… Psalm 23 and 24 and 19, and John 3, and the first verses of John 10, and John 17, and the description of the New Jerusalem from the end of Revelation, and those verses where the writer says, “Even so, come, Lord Jesus!” and the description of the angels worshiping at the throne, calling out “Holy, holy, holy…” and Paul’s description of Your return when we shall all rise up to meet You in the air and be with You always… and I sang “The Lord’s My Shepherd” and “Amazing Grace” and “What a Friend we Have in Jesus”… and most of the time mom just looked kind of worried like she often does, and was tangling her nightgown in knots, like she often does, but at one point she stretched out her arm and kind of pointed… at first I thought she was pointing out the window like she had done when I first arrived, but then it seemed to me that she was actually pointing toward the room at the foot of the bed, and I turned to look, and while my eyes did not “see” anything physically, suddenly I KNEW that the room was full of angels and they were kind of moving about, shimmering, smiling, stretching out their arms to mom (and maybe to me too? ). Even though I couldn’t see them physically, the sense of their presence was so powerful that I FELT them so strongly that I could dimly “see” them, it wasn’t physical, but it wasn’t “in my mind’s eye” either, it was beyond both of those kinds of seeing… and I think mom clearly knew they were there WITH US, sharing that moment with us… who knows, maybe she really could see them, I kind of think maybe she could … and then things kind of returned to normal, but I was left with this really strong sense that they were happy with us together there, and that they had come to wait for the moment when it is time for them to take my mommy home to be with her precious Jesus, and her Bill and her own mommy and daddy… I believe her time is very near… Thank You for this gift, dear Jesus
Jesus with his church…
Mar 27th
On Sunday, February 10, 2008, at home before service I was sitting on the couch reading, and suddenly felt God telling me to close the book and pray along with the pre-service prayer group at the church. I felt called to pray for unity, peace, moving of the Spirit among the people in the prayer group… and at the service too.
When we got to church, we put our coats, Bibles, etc. on the chairs, then got some coffee and went back to our seats… but I did not feel like staying there even though the music had started. So I went to the back, and sat on a step and just watched. And it seemed to me that church was really BEING CHURCH at the back door as people came in, and Bonnie was greeting them with the wonderful gift God has given her to do that… and then there was Rena wandering around doing her smiley, huggy, happy, welcoming people thing, her gift from God… and there was this tiny little native girl who wandered right up to me and just stared at me with her big serious beautiful dark eyes and I just felt love pour out… and some of the pre-teen girls were in the corner happily giggling together… and a couple men were just enthusiastically chatting about something, quite loudly … and when I had first come in I had seen one of the other men turn his chair right around, and hold the hands of the sad-looking man behind him and pray for him… and yes, a few people were standing in their rows facing the front, and a few of them were singing along to the music, and others were just kind of listening, or maybe even praying or just worshiping, and some maybe standing there wrapped in some sorrow or pain… and there were little ones running about happily smiling, and folks were smiling back at them… and yet hardly anyone was looking even slightly annoyed by all the goings-on, and that seemed so neat to me, and so different than so much of the “church” I have known in my life…
And suddenly it seemed to me like I was sitting in a quiet place, alone, kind of separated from what was going on around me yet able to see it like kind of a distance away… kind of like sitting on a beach on a hot quiet summer day without a breath of wind, like the world was holding its breath… and then a gentle breeze starting to arise from nowhere, and the leaves on the trees starting to rustle, with the sound of a little dancing babbling brook, and the air becoming light and fresh, and the world growing joyful and expectant, like all of creation was sharing in some joyful little moment…
And as I looked about the church – God’s people – I felt I could see Jesus walking gently about, and he was looking at the children playing, and the happy greetings, and the friendly chatter, and at those singing, and at those just standing quietly; looking at all the things that some people so often think should not be happening in a church service… and He was smiling and happy, moving among them, reaching out and touching the children’s heads, stopping to list and watch and smile, moving about, mingling in the midst of his church, his people, the children of Father. And he was pleased with them! Because they were being his church and he was among them and in them, and they were living his life with His Spirit there among them and in them. It was so beautiful.
It had nothing to do with the building, or the program, or anything that people can do. It was just Jesus and his people, abiding in the love of God, in relationship with him and with each other.
Yes, there were some kind of dark places, mostly up closer to the front… it seemed kind of far off and I don’t know, kind of lonely… But Jesus was like in the middle of His people and facing them, looking at people’s faces, reaching out and lightly touching them, moving among them… the music was like kind of far off in the background and didn’t seem too important, but every now and then there would be a swelling in it and a lifting of joy and I couldn’t help but join in for a line or two… yet it was also so neat that the music wasn’t at the center at all, Jesus was at the center, in the center of the room, not up front, and he was moving about with his hands kind of gently reaching out… the “service” seemed to kind of fade away, and for a few moments it was just Jesus and his family having some happy family time together, love just gently floating through and among his family, his church, his body, his people…





