13 February 2010
When I woke this morning, my mind was really whirling, and I felt like I was totally in the middle of this huge storm with stuff flying all around me… and then I said, “Dear Papa…” and instantly I was in this circle of perfect calm! I could still feel the storm swirling all around me (and actually see it in the dream I was having just before I woke), but there was this perfect stillness in the small circle where I stood, and my mind just stopped whirling and my heart beat slowed right down….
And I was in a spot of total peace and calm and rest – with YOU!!!! (I haven’t had a lot of calm this week, Papa. It has been really busy… and kind of stressful, especially related to work… and I have to admit I haven’t taken the time to just sit back, and spend focused time relaxing in Your Presence.
Here’s an interesting thing: I think I have felt that “focused” time in Your Presence “should” be “redeemed time” in which I study hard, pray a lot, write hard, listen hard… but maybe I am missing something important:
- Your rest!
- Your peace!
- Allowing You to renew my strength!
- Enjoying YOU!
“Come unto Me, all you are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest… for My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” (Matthew 11:27)
(Thank You, Papa! I see! In my eagerness to serve You, and to serve people, too – I’ve been depending upon myself more and more, and forgetting that it is really all YOUR work. No wonder I’ve been tired, and had non-stop dreams, and felt sick to my stomach, and so on – I have stepped out of YOUR arms, out from under Your wings, and have gotten swept into the storm! Please forgive me!
I see how absolutely essential it is to purposefully not only “practice Your presence” all the time, but to daily set aside time to clear my mind and heart – and body … [I see! That last part relates to fasting, doesn’t it – and healthy eating and healthy exercise, too, doesn’t it?!?! Wow! Cool! ?)
And I see how essential it is to just sit at Your feet like Mary – who did the “better thing” … it’s so easy to get caught up in the “serving” and become a Martha … teach Me, Lord, to sit at Your feet! Please! Amen!
Thank You.
